Friday, September 29, 2006

Good News!

I'm very HAPPY to announce I have started my rounds of fertility drugs today! I'm totally excited that it's happening! I will be giving myself shots for 7 days and next Friday Don and I go back to Indy to see the doctor and see how the meds are working. Hopefully it works wonders and we can do the next meds that make the things happen! We could have up to 3 babies...that is the most exciting news yet. One stop shopping! One pregnancy 3 babies...how cool is that? Well--we'll see.

We are also filling out applications for apartments. Hopefully we will have one in the works by next week and moving plans in writing. We will keep you posted!

Have a GREAT weekend!

Tuesday, September 26, 2006

Almost Good News

Well--I go see the specialist on Friday! The nurse said if the lab doesn't find any grow on my culture by then I can start giving myself shots! (I know, I know...I'm the one who HATES shots, but this time I'm excited!) I'm working through my fear of needles, and praying that it is all worth the blood, sweat, and tears. Because if you have been following my blog...there is a lot of blood and tears with the baby story! So--hopefully this weekend I can update saying we are using the shots! So please pray!

I hope your week is going good. Keep me updated on what's going on in your world! Keep Smiling!

Monday, September 25, 2006

Just another week

It seems to just have been just another week. The only thing different for me was a lot of phone time with apartment complexes in Florida. Other than that it's been kind of quiet.

Once we find an apartment Don will being his 2 weeks at the prison and heading south. He is excited about his new job. He gets to go to work in shorts...then change to scrubs and embalm, casket, and get the bodies ready for the funerals. The company supplies the scrubs and washes them, and all he has to worry about is the prep room. He doesn't have to wear suites (which for Don will be a total change in the funeral business). Don is totally excited to be going to the warm weather again.

Money isn't panning out like we would like it to...so Don will be heading out on his own for a while. Hopefully by Thanksgiving (Christmas at the latest) I'll be able to join him with all our stuff. So--all that has meant for me was REpacking some boxes so Don could take some stuff with him. He will be living with the bare minimum, and an air mattress. Hopefully he won't have to live like that for long. But if I'm lucky he will miss me a little.

While that has been our week! I know it's not exciting, but with working, packing, calling about apartments, and babysitting there isn't much time for anything else in my life. I hope you all have a good week and hopefully I'll be able to update soon that we found a place to stay in Florida.

Have a good week!

Monday, September 18, 2006

The Wheels are in Motion!

This morning we heard some good news (for Don anyways). He got the job in St. Petersburg, Florida. He is accepting the job, and now we are in a time crunch to get him there! (We are accepting donations for the move <--haha!) He will be leaving sometime in October and I will follow (hopefully) in November. If we can make the money work we will be going together, but we won't set our sites on that! I'm going to leave Regis after next week, and be a sub at the schools until I go. I found out that I can make more money right now doing that! Then when I get to Florida I'll work on getting back into the business and work for Regis there. But we don't know yet what day Don will be heading out. But we know he is taking this job and is totally excited!

So if anyone wants to visit St. Petersburg/Tampa area once we get settled down there...our door will be open! I am sad to leave my family here, but I know that Don needs to have a job that makes him happy. So, as a good wife, I'll miss my family so my husband will be happy!

As for the fertility drugs...I go on Wednesday to be retested for that infection and we will take one step at a time. If we have to put off the meds until another date I'll have my doctor recommend another doctor down there that can help us. Hopefully we can make this cycle "the cycle". We will wait and see!

Well--I hope you all have a great week and if we have anymore updates we will sure post them!

Saturday, September 16, 2006

No New News

Nothing great and wonderful to report this week! I have to go Wednesday to be retested for that dang bacterial infection. I hate the test, but they have to be sure it's gone before they can allow me to take my shots. So hopefully we will get some good news in the next couple weeks..which will be VERY close in time when shots have to start. Hopefully we won't have to wait until November. I might pull out my hair by then!

Don is still waiting for the firm in Florida to let him know if he has the job or not. I hope we will know something by the beginning of this next week! We are just hoping it will be good news and we can plan what happens next. Maybe he will go with one of the dogs and get started and I'll follow...but nothing is set in stone. Nothing in my life is!

Well that is all the news at this time! I'll update if we get any info! Have a great week!

Saturday, September 09, 2006

No one says a word...

Hey...to all those who reads my blog...no one ever said I had 2 same posts! What's up with that? I'm very sorry for posting the same thing twice, but it was late and I was tired...so Hopefully it won't happen again!

Nothing great or wonderful is going on in our world. Working everyday doing something. Repacking our stuff in hopes that Don is closer to a real job offer. But nothing else new here! Have a great week!

Wednesday, September 06, 2006

Simple Thoughts

You know it's late and I can't sleep...just alot of things going around in my head. So I thought...why not just go type them out and hopefully sleep will find me soon! So here I am, and I'm hoping this works!
Well today I found out I still have that dang bacterial infection. So now Don and I are both on stronger medican to kill whatever this is. (Maybe I'll kill it before doing shots!) But it just seems to be one thing after another with this dang stuff! I don't ever seem to see the end of the tunnel...when I think I see the light...it's just my flashlight shining in my eyes! At times I just want to throw my hands up and yell at the top of my lungs...I give up it's not worth the fight. But than I see pictures of babies, see babies at the mall, and just wish one day I could just be part of that world...instead of looking in the windows (if you even can follow that). But the fight is still there and hopefully it won't take much longer!
On the other hand; Don is still hunting for a job he likes. Poor guy! He had an interview today (Tuesday) in Hobart, IN. He is one of 3 to be interviewed for this job. Hopefully that means being in the top 3 for 3 jobs he will get a job offer that we can really use! I'm hoping (for his sake) he gets a job offer soon. I know he just hates the prision (not that I could really blame him there).
Then this evening we learn that Don's sister had a baby. (It's the sister that is in and out of jail.) That didn't help matters any. But she did have a baby girl...8lbs 4oz; 22inchs long. Sandi thinks she wants to name the poor baby "Eternity Harley". Now-isn't it enough that her mom is a druggie and isn't going to be there for her...now she wants to curse this baby with a horrid name. What the heck is wrong with people? I'm just hoping for the baby's sake she decides to give it up for adoption. She really hasn't decided about that yet. But knowing her--she'll try to raise this baby and only hurt the chances of this child having any type of normal life. It just makes me mad that people that really want kids...or even like them...have them! Let's think about what we are doing to these poor children for a minute. But they never do--the babies are too cute and than they lose the cuteness and only cry, eat, sleep, and potty. But by the time people like my sister-in-law figure it out...that poor child is lost in a never ending cycle or fall through the cracks of life.

Okay, I think I'm done. I just needed to get it off my mind and now that I did...I hope you aren't bored with another trip of "I hate Dumb people!". I hope you all have a GREAT week. And we will update you on anything great and wonderful!

Sunday, September 03, 2006

Hurry and Wait

This fertility stuff is going to be the death of me I'm sure! It's all hurry up and wait. And I'm just not good at that. It's been a heck of a week with from the lowest of lows to the highs, but all we can do now is wait. With having the insurance knocking me off balance and struggling to find my wait above water. With the drugs on the way to the doctor's office...we now just wait until next cycle. Which is better than hoping above all hope that we find money to buy the drugs, but this is just going to be the longest cycle of all! Friday morning I call the specialist office and asked if they got the drugs (which at 9:30am they had not). So I got to talk to a nurse that I will be "working" closely with through the process. She said well..."it usually takes 10 days to get the medicine here, but since they told you we would have it today. Come on in and we will do the test we need to do and hopefully by noon we will have them." Noon is when the office closes on Fridays...while looking at the clock and knowing I had to get up, get dressed, get the dogs in the house, and get everything ready for work. I wasn't going to make it in time. I then asked (kind of like a child) "should we just wait?". She left it in my hands. (Now...why do that do that? I'm not the one that knows what the heck is going on...even if it is my body...HELLO? I'm really a blonde and just want to have someone tell me what to do.) So I told her I would feel better knowing that the drugs were in hand before making myself have to go through "pretesting" and all. She agreed that would be the smartest thing. So I'm to call her later in the month. That is where we stand on that! But it is steps forward!
Now about Don's world. He doesn't make things better. He is all over the place with his job hunts. (I do have to say...he is making headway.) He is talking to a firm in St. Petersburg, FL and one in Panama City, FL. He is in the top 3 candidates for both of them. He has a job interview on Tuesday with a firm up around Merrillville, IN (really it's Hobart, but I didn't know where that was until now). Oh and he's talking to someone in Texas. So hopefully soon he will let me know what we are doing. I've decided that I'm not waiting on him to tell me he got a job...I have started going through our stuff and repacking everything. I think I will be about done when he gets a job (since I'm going through all the boxes and seeing if it is stuff we want, need, or should just get rid of).
Well, I'm off to get ready for the week ahead! I hope you have a better holiday than me (I have to work it).

Friday, September 01, 2006

Ever Changing

In the last week and a half since my last post my world has been turned upside down and back again! Let's see if I can recap for you. Last time I posted...we had seen the specialist and he thinks he pin pointed my problem...and wants to do rounds of shots that he believes will help me get pregnant within 3 cycles. His staff called in the "order" for the drugs and we were waiting on the insurance to pay for it and the drug company to send it. While I called Thursday of last week to see how things looked and the woman at the "drug store" said it all looked good...I would have to drugs in hand this week on Wednesday. I was VERY happy and went about my business. On Sunday evening my hopes and dreams crashed...The "drug store" called and said the insurance won't pay for the fertility drugs...and if I had a credit card I could put $1200 of drugs on. I said no...and I wanted to call the insurance company in the morning. I was devastated...couldn't think straight at all. Monday I called the insurance (because online they say they cover this "specialty drug"). While to come to find out...they do, but since my husband works for the state of Indiana and the plan we are on with this insurance company...they don't pay for fertility drugs. While I couldn't think about what to do...but I remember Dr. Cline gave me some info about this thing called Fertility LifeLines. Brooke Shields promotes it...and it has great information...while I then remember Don and I had looked stuff up on the internet and we had read about "help" getting these drugs. So I called (crying none the less) and got to talk with this really sweet man. He said that yes there is a program that is called "Compassionate Care" to eligible patients who may not otherwise be able to afford fertility treatment. You have to meet certain criteria...like not having insurance coverage for fertility meds, had to be a US citizen or permanent resident,annual household income, and not being on the program before. I asked how to get ahold of the paperwork to fill out and try. He asked if I had a fax (because it would be faster) so I gave him my number to our fax and filled out the info. He told me that when I turned it in that it could take up to 2 weeks to hear ANYTHING. But at this point I had no other choice but to go ahead and try. I filled it out and sent them the info they wanted like my pay stubs...(which I only have one from Regis and I had to explain that I worked for myself and didn't have other pay stubs), tax return papers from last year, a copy of my insurance card (so they could verify that the insurance would not pay for the drugs), and leave it to a board to help me. Around Wednesday they called and wanted to verify some things...like why I only had 1 pay stub...and stuff like that. Then just praying that something great would happen...I tried to get through my week. Yesterday evening...my cell phone rang (thinking everyone I know...knows that I had the day off and am at home) I answered the call. It was that sweet man...I talked to on Monday about getting the ball rolling to see if we could get help paying for the drugs. He said " I wanted to be the one to call and tell you that you have been approved for the help of getting free fertility drugs" I was so dang happy. The only thing is they can't send me the drugs...they are sending the drugs to my doctor and I have to get them from him. I then asked why I couldn't receive them here since I live so far from my doctor...he just told me it's how they do it...so I was like...whatever...that's fine...not wanting to piss anyone off...and they will be easier to get ahold of from the doctor then the drug company. So long story short...we are getting the drugs I need and at a dang good price (free).
I'm sure we have missed the chance this month for the round of drugs...but knowing that the drugs are in route makes knowing next month we can start the (hopefully short) road to having children. I can't think about anything else, but how grateful I am to have a husband that even when I go off the deep end (like Sunday and Monday) he stands there and is a rock. And my mom I don't know where she gets her strength, but Sunday told me I could endure this because I was her daughter and she KNEW things would work out...even if I had to figure out how to get the money ourselves. I'm grateful for the family I had the great fortune to have!
If you know anyone that needs help with fertility drugs tell them to call Fertility LifeLines at 866-Lets-Try or 866-538-7879. They have been great! They also can go online to www.fertilitylifelines.com. It has all the info to call.
Well that is our update for now. We have to call the doctor's office later today to see when we can start the shots...and when we can pick them up. But we will keep you updated on what is going on! Have a Great week! I know we will try!